Space Cowboys

My New Blog

2006-03-11T19:01:00.000+08:00

Hello Friends,

I've moved!

www.nicelywrapped.blogspot.com

Updates on Life~

2006-01-17T12:12:00.000+08:00

Ok, time to update my blog.
CNY is here again!!! YAY! Angbao time! Slurps
Spent the whole of Sunday preparing and baking pineapple tarts at my eldest sister ’s place with Kevin.
Everyone had a role to play in completing the biscuit like pineapple tarts at the end of the day :P

After the pineapple tarts making session, we went to visit my 2nd sister! We’ve never been to her new house and WOW! I really like it! The living area is really spacious and I can easily spot traces of Europe with the miniature Eiffel tower, Pisa tower and other ornaments. Soon, they will have Mona Lisa’s painting up too! I should have bought one of it when I was at De Lourve… grrrrrrr
God do I miss Europe… miss walking down the streets of Paris at night… miss the big and beautiful tulips in Holland. And of coz, how can I forget the chocolates in Belgium! YUMMY!
I ’ll definitely go back to Europe again! Especially Andorra, which is a tax free country! Hehehehe and that will suggest lotsa shopping!
Kevin and I would want to visit Liverpool really soon! I can ’t wait to land my foot in Anfield!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I recently bought some car decals from ebay.uk
The “THIS IS ANFIELD” car decal looks soooooooooooooo good on our blue charade! There ’s other decal which says “Little Liver onboard”, we ’ll wait till there is a little baby onboard then we’ll paste the sticker on the car! hehehe

Then there ’s the Liverpool 3 DVDs set that I bought online too.
1st DVD: Champions League Final Preview
2nd DVD: The Final - AC Milan Vs Liverpool
3rd DVD: The Homecoming
Over 2 hours of coverage from Sky News of the Victory parade around Liverpool

This DVD set is a MUST have for all Liverpool fans. Worth to hear is what Andy Gray said just before half time at the finals. “Game truly over” And also, Phil Thompson ’s reaction as the reedmen fought back! It was hilarious!

Finished reading Anansi Boys... i prefer Neverwhere to Anansi boys. But still its a good read.
Am reading American Gods by Neil Gaiman too!

How's work?

2005-12-04T13:54:00.000+08:00

Been working for almost two months. I consider myself really lucky to start off with this job. I get to know alot of contacts, important people in the media industry.
Recently been invited to Maxim 1st Anniversary party, then the FEMALE 50 gorgeous people party at zouk.
Went to events by Mediacorp and Fashion Magazines. And i realise.. i dun have alot of nice clothings. I need pretty dresses and nice heels! So i've been shopping alot on Ebay. Why Ebay? I can't bare to see someone wearing the same clothing as me!

Also, i realise make up is really important. So, i went down to True Colors and invested in a few good make up.

A Laura Mercier Foundation Primier - $79.90
A Laura Mercier Oil Free Foundation - $88.50
A Laura Mercier Translucent Loose Powder - $78.00
A YSL Radiant Touch - $52?

Who is Laura Mercier? www.lauramercier.com

Reading the Shopaholic Series doesn't really help with my spending :P

I've been reading alot of good books too!

Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman
Its a really good book. You have to "set" your mind to fantasy mode to truly enjoy this book.

Dead Famous by Ben Elton
A book on media manipulation. Those who have not watch the reality show Big Brother might find it abit hard to understand the story.

Shopaholic Abroad by Sophie Kinsella
Not for the weak hearted :P

Am reading Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman

Oh, i just went to sign up to be a Kinokuniya member after drooling over the collection of Neil Gaiman books they have! hehehe

Though my job is interesting, (did i mention i get alot of free magazines?) but it is really really tough too. All the decisions on media buying and budget planning are killing my little grey cells softly.

So, i am really thankful to Kevin. *BRIGHT SMILE* I only need to know that after my long day at work, i will be returning into his arms. Thanks dear!

My Saturday with Morrie

2005-10-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

It took some people a lifetime to learn the lesson about life. Well, i'll say fair enough, as it is indeed a really tough lesson.
I consider myself lucky cause I am only 24 when i learn a very important lesson about life, a chapter that i will never forget.

The SA at Video Ezy picked up the movie "Tuesdays with Morrie" when i asked for an inspirational show. Both Kevin and me went "OH SURE!" we watched "Five people you meet in Heaven" and had been looking forward to another show that was based on Mitch Albom's books.

What makes "Tuesdays with Morrie" a great movie? A movie NOT TO BE MISSED?

It is based on a True Story. A dying professor who has so much to teach. His death changes Mitch's Life. Just like what Mitch mentioned in his book "Five people you meet in heaven". No story stands alone. And Mitch wrote the book... and millions of people picked the book up. And i bet... their lives had changed. Maybe not drastically, but everytime a decision is made, i am sure what Mitch has got to spread would flash past one's mind.

As for me, i am just glad i've learnt from Mitch and his professor.

"Death ends a life, not a relationship"
"Love each other or die"

Some might probably stare at these quotes and think " What is so meaningful?"
Well, go watch the show!

Anyway, one thing everyone should know and at least try.

Live each day as if its the last, and you will live differently

Floats like a Cannonball

2005-09-09T13:15:00.000+08:00

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little harder to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on

There is no end to Comparison.
Why is it that people find it difficult to be contented with their lives?
Human Beings are so used to taking things for granted. Once you have something you always wanted, then you think i could have settle for something better.
Theres always something BETTER. But it is up to you to bring the BEST of what you have right now.
Love for example.
Sprinkle a little sugar & spice. Love is not a habit. It is a drug.

What have you been doing?

2005-09-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!! 2005!
A year that i've been looking forward to for the past 1 and a half year.
What makes 2005 an even better year? Kevin came over to join me in MAY! It was a great experience to stay together from May till July!
During July, my family came over for my graduation and we went on a tour to a few states in Australia.

The perfection of imperfections

2005-04-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

I've always compare myself to perfect people, always seeking perfection.
But then i slow down my pace and take a look around.
I realised there's no such thing as a perfect person or a perfect world.

Imperfection can be a form of beauty.
The beauty is that you know it does exist.

The Best Birthday

2005-04-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

I am so happy that i am finally IN love. I've love and be loved but this is the first time i am IN love.The feeling is so amazing... I love Kevin so much, and having him loving me back so much too is just the most fortunate thing that could ever happen to me. This is really something special... never never never, i've felt anything close to this... I used to think i know what love is... now that Kevin is in my life...everything in my past is nothing compared to what i have with him now. This is what i call a Real Relationship. I have no doubts in starting a family with Kevin. I Love Kevin whole heartedly and there is absolutely no one else that i rather be with.

12th April. The day i celebrate my birthday. I've never really look forward to any of my birthday.
This year... is a totally awesome year.

11th April
11.00am I got my first birthday card from Kevin... "With Love to My Girlfriend, Right from the start you captured my heart" it says... with two forever friends bear at the cover. Simply lovely... But it was whats written inside that made me teared and at the same time... smile forever :)

Then i recieved a birthday card from my auntie...she is just like a mother to me. She never fail to shower me with love and care... always be there for me. She is my guardian angel.

11.00pm I got to webcam with my Auntie, Granny and brother. This is the first time i see them via webcam since i came back to Australia. Can't help but teared. I really miss them all alot. And i am so happy to be able to see them.

11.45pm Got ready my cake. Celebrating my birthday with Kevin via webcam. After he sang me a birthday song, after i made a wish... and after i blew the candles... Kevin send me a link to a blogspot site.

There... i saw words straight from his heart. Words that touched me. He read it through for me... and then.. he started singing. :) A song composed just for me. A song about us. The dates we went on... the feelings we have for each other... and the love that is here to stay. At that instance, i was made the luckiest girl in this world.

12th April
11.30am A delivery man was at the door with a basket of flowers and i was the recipient. I was thinking.. gosh.. who could it be? Of course.. it's from Kevin. I never thought i deserve so much...so much love... i am always reminded that i am loved by Kevin, i am always reminded of how fortunate i am to be his girlfriend.

1.30pm Made an overseas call to Shirlyn... how can i not hear from my best friend on my Birthday? Miss you alot Si Char Bor!

7.15pm After my Latino class. Agnes and Ivan asked me over to their place. Welcomed by a bowl of mee sua, two red eggs and a bowl of red bean soup. Its so great to have wonderful friends around you who actually make an effort to prepare birthday food for you. Thanks guys!

9.00pm My birthday celebration started. We all had a heavy dinner. Got a John Mraz Cd from Sharon and Calvin. A Gift Card from Wenyang and Elliot. Body shop Gift set from Agnes and Ivan. Chicken Wings from Steve and Red bean dessert from Nobi.

Being 24 is not much a difference from being 23. But Most importantly, i am very certain that i've found the love of my life, i know that i have a caring family and i know that i am blessed with wonderful friends.

I am looking forward to many birthdays to come. I know i will be a really happy Birthday girl when i have Kevin, my family and my close friends with me :)

Toast to our future

2005-04-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

I am always looking forward to seeing you again
I will always want to see your smiling face
The comfort of being around you feels like home
and i just want to return to home everyday
I am lucky because i am loved by you
but i want to make you the luckier one
So let me love you forever
Heres a toast to our amazing Love

*smile*

My Favourite

2005-03-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

Having a True Love in your life is just like having ONE all time favourite song. No matter how many better songs may be composed along the years. Your favourite song will always remain as your favourite. True Love is just the same. He is your One and Only true love and will always remain as the only one. So... do you have a favourite song?

Top Of the World

Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

My Diary for You...

2005-01-19T18:38:00.000+08:00

"I can't begin to explain how lucky it is to find someone you can love that much, and who, miracles of miracles, loves you that much back."

When i was younger, i never believe in marriage. Never believe that my marriage will last. Never think that i will have a happy marriage.

Now... its amazing how much i've changed. I want a happy marriage... not just a happy one, an everlasting one too. I want to create a family... where theres Me, You and OUR child.

We will get married on a lovely day... the sun will shine for us, the birds will sing for us, and all our friends will give us their blessing. We will exchange vows and rings and then we will kiss... just like the first time we kissed.. how passionately. I'll whisper into your ear and say "10 years down the road, i will wanna kiss you this way."

We'll enjoy living together. Doing absolutely everything together. And when we think that its time for a new family member. We will plan for a baby.

We will hang wallpaper that danced with Mother Goose stories. Bears, Books and colorful wall quilts that will hang over the crib. We will decorate our baby's room, together. We will welcome our first baby Together.

Our baby will have your eyes and my smile. We'll read stories to our baby... sing n dance our baby to sleep. Yes.. we'll be doing everything together. Me, You and OUR baby - Forever One.

I have a great personality and i know you have a wonderful one too. We make the best couple and we will be raising the cutest baby ever!

I think it is important to find someone who has the same beliefs as you. Only when he too wants to work hard for a happy family. Then, will you have one.

To whoever is reading this, I wish you LOVE

Fallin' leaf

2005-01-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't say it's easy to find someone who enjoys listening to sad songs and actually letting the heart to feel the pain that is found within the song.

I don't always feel this way. But i do enjoy times like this. It's a reminder that i am just a normal girl...who can feel the pain when my heart aches. A girl who will get tired after putting on the smile on the face for a long time. A girl who has the needs to be sad at times. A girl who has the needs to feel the throbbing pain at times.

Is there anyone out there who feels the same way as me? Someone who wants to escape from reality for awhile? Fly away...spread those wings and fly...Take a break from everything...have a chance to be ME, MYSELF...truly...

I am taking this journey too fast. I need to slow down my pace and enjoy the solitude. I want to take a stroll through my life. I don't want to miss anything beautiful in this world... i want to know that i've truly lived. Truly experienced life... Tears of happiness and tears of sorrows...

Take a deep breath... feel ur existence, and then go LIVE

Tired

2005-01-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

I've tried to love.
Its a tiring process.
But why should i try in the first place?
If i truly love someone
I will Love him
I don't need to try to Love him.
Love comes when you least expected it.

Life Story

2005-01-05T16:09:00.000+08:00

No story sits by itself. Sometimes stories meet at corners and sometimes they cover one another completely, like stones beneath river. That each affects the other and the other affect the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all ONE.

All endings are also beginnings. We Just don't know it at the time.

- the five people you meet in Heaven

05.01.05

2005-01-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

How often does one feel unsure about their feelings?
How often does one question his/her ability to differentiate right from wrong?
How often does one feel the heart missed a beat?
How often does one feel the feeling of Love?
How often does one meet someone he/she likes?
How often does one hate the one he/she loved?

I feel rather uncertain about my feelings for anyone all the time... it changes.

I always question my ability to differentiate right from wrong...who am i to judge what i've decided is right or wrong? I might feel that i am right to make this decision today, but it could turn out to be wrong. Things do change.

Not often i will get the chance to feel that my heart has missed a beat for someone. I don't always get to find a special one. And i don't always fall for the same type of guys... it changes.

It's easy to meet someone you like. But the feelings could eventually become love... it changes.

I hate those i cannot love. I hope that this could change.

On "Love"

2004-12-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

Formula
Love equation: 1+1=1

Loving torture
Maybe i didn't love you that much, i was only enjoying being hard on myself.

to be continued

Full Stop
The only way to stop loving you is to hate you

Lonely Christmas

2004-12-19T03:11:00.000+08:00

The big crowd along orchard road makes me feel so empty inside. I feel small... i feel insignificant... i feel that i am alone in this world.

Did the christmas lightings light up for the joyus crowd? The lights are beautiful... feels really romantic. But why do i feel that it was lighted up just to shine on my my lonesome heart, reminding me that i am Lonely this Christmas?

Win, Lose, Never Draw

2004-12-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

Christmas is approaching... Its my favourtite time of the year. The time of giving, the time for falling in love.
When two strangers come together and begin to know and understand each other, how do they decide that they should be more than friends? How do we know if we love the person as a friend or we want to fall in love, magical love?

Do lovers have doubts? Questions like... "Do i love this person enough to want to start a relationship with him?" , "Can we really be in love?","Are we really in love"...most importantly, What do you really mean by love?

To me, love actually is a very simple affair. Alot of people think that love is complicated, that is because humans are complex. The reality is too much for us to take... we've seen too much, know too much, think too much. We question the reality. We question ourselves. We question Love.

Who says love is not a game? Life itself is like a game. In the game of love, you decide if you want to be the loser or the winner. The winner does not neccesarily be the one who says "good-bye" first. The real winner is the one who steps out of this game and welcome the future, close the door behind and opens the next one. He who moves on, is the winner. Life is too short to look back at closed doors. You never know what lies ahead in the future... Life is always full of surprises. If you are too weak for surprises, too bad. You lose.

Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered

2004-10-19T14:02:00.000+08:00

Its not about changing yourself to suit the enviroment. Its about changing the enviroment to suit you... Ok.. i am not talking about the bigger scale... if i can really change the enviroment on a bigger scale, Bush will be gone by now.

Have you forgotten how little things in life can bring upon a smile on your face? What i'm talking about here is changing the enviroment around you... changing little things here and there. For my case, i play around with my room arrangements... my bedsheets... my night lamp... the music i play...All these little things can affect your mood...

Listen to some Jazz or bossa nova music instead of Linkin Park... trust me, you will feel less hatred.

And if you are a lady... doll yourself up... even if you do not have any appointment for the day... play ard with your make up. You don't need a reason to look pretty. Look into the mirror and tell yourself "You are Beautiful" . If you want others to love you, you will have to love yourself first. What's wrong with having a crush on YOU?!? yourself *smile*

I’ve got a crush on you, sweetie pie
All the day and night-time,Hear me sigh
I never had the least notion
That I could fall with so much emotion
Could you coo? Could you care
For a cunning cottage we could share?
The world will pardon my mush
’cause I’ve got a crush, my baby, on you

Don't give up on first try

2004-10-07T11:48:00.000+08:00

I enjoy taking showers and i find it very inspiring... heres something i thought about over shower this morning.

Love is just like getting the Right water temperature for your shower, you turn the HOT and COLD tap a few times before getting the ideal temperature.

You don't just walk into your shower room, turn on the tap and start showering. You don't always get it right on your first try. Just like LOVE... if you fail for the first time, don't despair. You just didn't manage to get the temperature right.

Luckiest girls

2004-09-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

This entry is dedicated to my dearest pal, Shirlyn

When best friends are seperated in distance, they are always close in hearts. Best friends are never really apart. They will always be there for each other. And when you are feeling down, you know that she will always be there to pick you up.

We might slowly forget about all the memories shared... when we were younger, when we were happier, when things seem so much simpler...

What we will not forget is how we stood by each other, how we quarrel about little things and how we got closer after every arguements.

Its bad times like these that makes you treasure and appreaciate the good times we had and will have.

I just want to let you know that I LOVE YOU for who u are. There isn't a thing in you that i want to change. Don't ever lose yourself... please please rememember that!

Fate brought us together to be friends and destiny decides that we are made to be best of friends.

I will never take you for granted and i will do my best to show you how much you are treasured as my dearest friend. :) We will always have each other and that is a Promise!

Chu Xiang

Shining Friends

A little faith
Brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult you can go away
Don't hide yourself in a corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up
You'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear ,make my world disappear
You'll never be alone on darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
you have got to believe ,you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear ,make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

Standing Alone in this Universe

2004-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

I am only Human... Don't take my kindness for granted, you are only making me question if it is wrong being nice to people.
I've never been so forgiving or good tempered. Guess you've pushed me to my sky high limit.

Sometimes i am really tired of being who i am... its not easy to be me. The question of my existence in this world is haunting me all this while. Is my existence reality? Or am i only in a dream? I feel so tiny sometimes... or should i say most of the time. Often, i feel that i am standing alone in this Universe, theres no one out there who truly understands what i'm going through now.
My troubles are mine, other people's troubles are mine too... sometimes knowing too much is not a good thing after all... the more you know, the more troubles and worries you have.

Maybe its time to take a break... I am fragile... the reality is just too much for me to handle.

When We Dance

2004-09-19T14:52:00.000+08:00

When we Dance

If he loved you
Like I love you
I would walk away in shame
I'd move town, I'd change my name

When he watches you
When he comes to buy your soul
On your hand his golden rings
Like he owns a bird that sings

When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings
The priests have said my soul's salvation Lies in the balance of the angels
And underneath the wheels of passionI keep the faith in my fashion

When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings
I'm still in love with you
When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings

I'm gonna love you more than lifeIf you'll only be my wife
I'm gonna love you night and day
I'm gonna try in every way
When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings

I'm gonna find a place to live
Give you all I've got to give
I would love you more than life
If you'll only be my wife

If I could break down these
And shout my name at heaven's gate
I'd take these hands
And I'd destroy the dark machineries of fate,The vehicles are broken

Heaven's the one above
Hellfire's a promise away
I'd still be sayingI'm still in love

He won't love you
Like I love you
He won't care for you this way
He'll mistreat you if you stay
Come and live with me
We'll have children of our own
I would love you more than life
If you'd come and be my wife

When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings
I'm gonna love you more than life
If you'll only be my wife
I'm gonna love you night and day
I'm gonna try in every way

When we dance
Angels will run and hide their wings
I'm gonna find a place to live
Give you all I've got to give
I would love you more than life
If you'd only be my wife

I'll probably melt if someone is to dedicate this song to me. This is a song that i will listen when i think about my future, about starting my family. I used to be very focused on my work. I want to be a career woman, i want to start my own business and be a sucessful business woman. Never thought of getting married, thought it's just a waste of time and Love is only for the Fools.Well... i really didn realise what i was missing out then.

If I had the gift of prophecy, and all the knowledge, And the faith to move the mountains, Even if I understood all of the mysteries If I didn't have love I'd be nothing.

Build everything base on love and you will only get to see how beautiful life is :)

Friends

2004-09-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

"I LOVE YOU"
that is the message i sent to some of my friends in msn two days back.

I thought i should let my friends know how much i love and adore them. How dear they are to me and that they are being treasured by me. Friends don't just come and go... they stay if you choose to let them stay and your life will be blessed with another gem.

If its not for what had been happening for the past one week, i wouldn't have come to realise the importance of friends. How important they are to me and my importance to them. If i have not been a good friend, give me another chance and more time, i want to be a better friend :)

Its never easy saying "I Love you". Especially to people you are really close to. I remember the first time i tried to say I love you to my auntie, she stared blank right back at me. Then i saw a faint and shy smile... and those three words came out from her back to me.

Its silly to know that we treat strangers nicer than people who are closest to us. Why is this so? and why are you letting this happen? Don't you love them? Don't you know how important these people are to you?

Let there be Love!!! Show appreciation... don't take for granted that they know. Tell them you love them. You never know if tomorrow will ever come... if given a choice, let the regrets that you gona have after you die be reduced by more.

So how many "I love you"s are you gonna say today?

A happy family

2004-09-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

I am Sam got me crying from the very beginning of the show till the end of it. Never know i was such an emotional person... didn know i had that much tears to let out. Its shows like these that touch my soul... What makes a happy family? Love is all you need.

Love makes one persistent! Sam fought hard for Lucy..., Lucy's determination to walk across busy roads just to sleep with daddy... and all the love Lucy gets from his daddy's friends! She is blessed.

I've never really like the idea of marriage. Maybe its because of my family background or maybe its just me. I cannot imagine staying with the same guy for the rest of my life. But as i grow older... i understand Love is what u need to make things workout. If i truly love someone, a lifetime of being together is never enough. Marriage is not a game, not an investment and defintely not a gamble.

If i ever want to get married i want to marry my true love, not just some guy i love, but someone whom i know i can never do without spiritually. As i stand in the altar with the guy beside me, i want to say I LOVE YOU with all my heart... and i know i will be able to say these three words to this guy for many years to come.

I want to have a happy family. I want my kids to have what i do not have as a kid. I want to read them stories by the fireplace. I want to build a treehouse with them. I want to sing them lullaby. I want to prepare dinner for my family after their long at day at work and school, bring them together at the dining table.

I want no arguments, i want no fights. I dun want my kids to ask me why are you shouting at daddy. And i want to pass this family values down.

This is what i want... and this will only materialise with Love.

Sun will shine my friend

2004-09-16T01:36:00.000+08:00

To my dearest friends out there! Here is a song me and my friend wish to share.

It Can't Rain All The Time
- Jane Siberry

We walked the narrow path, beneath the smoking skies.
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference between darkness and light.
Do you have faith in what we believe?
The truest test is when we cannot, when we cannot see.
I hear pounding feet in the,
In the streets below, and the,
And the women crying and the,
And the children know that there,
That there's something wrong,
And it's hard to believe that
Love will prevail.

Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
Your tears won't fall forever.

Oh, when I'm lonely, I lie awake at night and I wish you were here.
I miss you. Can you tell me is there something more to believe in?
Or is this all there is?
In the pounding feet, in the,
In the streets below, and the,
And the window breaks and,
And a woman falls, there's,
There's something wrong, it's,
It's so hard to believe that love will prevail.
Oh it won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
Your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall
Forever.

Last night I had a dream.
You came into my room, you took me into your arms.
Whispering and kissing me, and telling me to still believe.
Within the emptiness of the burning cities against which we save our darkest
Selves...
Until I felt safe and warm.
I fell asleep in your arms.
When I awoke I cried again for you were gone.
Oh, can you hear me?
It won't rain all the time.
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
Your tears won't fall forever.
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever.
And though the night seems long,
Your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall, your tears won't fall
Forever.

Have faith that the sun will shine on you again :)

Mad World

2004-09-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

Some believe One heart, One Love.
Some need alot of love to fill that one heart.

Why is it so difficult to stay loyal to someone whom you really love? Or was it not love?

No one is changing

2004-09-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

Don't give yourself excuses that he has changed. You are only getting to know the real him. Why did we get into a relationship in the first place when who i love is not really you.

And where did the guy that i used to love go? I've build my world around you, and that was a silly thing to do. Now that everything is gone, my world is shattered, pieces of memories are everywhere... just like the broken glasses on the floor, i am trying my best not to step on it, i dun wana bleed coz it hurts.

You gave me my happiest moments and brought me the saddest too.

Now i think i understand... i was in the sinking sand believing a fairytale will come true

Oh but you are in my blood
You're my holy wine You're so bitter, bitter and so sweet
Oh, I could drink a case of you darling

Both Sides Now

2004-09-12T07:53:00.000+08:00

How to know if love is here to stay...

The reason you gave when u chose to leave me is the same reason why you adore me in the first place. If love itself is already so complicated, you are making things worst by contradicting it.

I used to think that this will last forever... i am not the only believer. You told me that we will withstand all obstacles and you ensure me that this is the kind of true love that will go on forever.

Whenever i have doubts about our relationship, you told me to hold on to what you've said to me. And that you will be as constant as a northen star. Now that you tell me its all over, i want to hold on to what you've assured me before, believing everything will turn out well in the end. But you say whatever said should be left in the past and suggest that i forget it.

If only forgetting is as easy as forgiving, i would be a much happier person now.
Its never easy to forget. Especially when we once create wonderful memories together.
But its unfair when you can just fly off into the future just like that, leaving me behind.

I shall live my own life too... i don't live my life for you.

If we are meant to be, then we will meet again. If not, i have faith in destiny. I am sure there is someone out there that is meant to be my true love.

You've changed. The sparkle in your eyes is gone. Your smile is just a careless yawn. You're breaking my heart. You've changed

You've forgotten the words i love you, and the memories that we've shared. You've ignore all the stars up above you. I can't realize that you ever cared. You've changed.

So now I say the things I want to say
Sometimes it's better letting go this way
I'll always know down in my soul
We really had so far to go
I've given all I had to give
And now it's time for me to live
And I won't look back
And I won't regret
Though hurts like hell
Someday I will forget

Somewhere only we know...

2004-08-29T20:14:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i last posted. Been really busy with my school work. Just got a part time job, working as a catalogue distributor. Pay is pathetic, but i really like the job... i can listen to my CD player... sing along to the songs... walk from houses to houses, dropping catalogues into their mailboxes. Some of the houses are really beautiful... especially at night! I realised the beauty of Lights.. what they can do.. and how it can get me feeling all so romantic!

After watching Serendipity and Sleepless In Seattle, i realised that one can love a few at the same time, but there is only one TRUE love in your entire life. And it really freaks me out to know that even at the point where you are planning for your marriage, you could realise that your true love is someone else out there.. and that the guy standing next to you at the altar is merely someone you love and is comfortable with.

I dunno if i would be able to find my true love... but i will not give up searching. I have faith in fate... and i believe in destiny.

Alot of my friends around me are going through break ups... Just remember that Every ending could be a new beginning, we just don't know it at that time. If you choose to dwell in the past, you won't be able to see how beautiful your future could be... someone esle could be waiting.

And to those who are holding on...
"this could be the end of everything so why don't we go somewhere only we know"

Trapped in Bebop

2004-08-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

I miss miss miss the anime...
I need to watch it to help me realise where i am now and where i should be heading next.
Is life a dream?
When will i finally get to wake up?

Yes... i am totally trapped! How to get out from this bebop web, return to reality and face the truth... what exactly is the truth that everyone is searching for?

Reality is self constructed

Soul Session

2004-08-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

I am the closest stranger to you.

I am who i am because this is who you want me to be...

I do have problem revealing the real me. Not that i am a secretive person... i just do not fancy the thought of someone understanding me as much as i understand myself.

I hate to ask for help... would only do it under desperate measures. I've always been independent, especially emtionally. And i totally hate it when someone ask me to take care of myself, do you think i need your reminder? I love myself more than anyone else... so leave it to me, i can handle this. I know how to take care of myself and i do not need people to ask me to do so.

I am in the journey of finding myself.

Wonder Woman Flying to the Moon~

2004-08-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

I feel so invincible today!!! i am so so powered up!!! I broke Sharon's key today... YES!!! as in literally broke it into two pieces!!! I accidentally broke it while trying to open her block's back door... when i tried to open the door, it refuses to, so i turn it REAL hard... out came the key.. only the head! the bottom of the key was stuck in the key hole!!! wahahahaha

Come to think of it... i've broke 4 hangers just last week.. all becoz i used too much force to try remove the hanger from the rack. -__-"' What is so wrong with me??? Will you fly if i punch you right in the face? Maybe i could try... so that i can fly you to the Moon!

Fly Me To The Moon

Poets often use many words
to say a simple thing
But it takes thought and time and rhyme
to make a poet sing

With music and words
I'll be playin'
For you I have written a song
To be sure that you'll know what
I'm sayin' I'll translate as I go along
(yeah oh yeah)

Fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
Won't you let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars

In other words
hold my hand
In other words
darling kiss me

Fill my heart with song
and let me sing forever more
'cause you are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words
please be true
In other words
I love you
In other words
please be true(please be true, I just want you to be true)
In other words
I love you(I love you, I love you)
(to the moon)

Just take me to the moon and far
yeah

Utada Hikaru

starting all over again

2004-08-10T07:10:00.000+08:00

Been too too lazy to do anything to my old blog... and i've given myself enough reasons to abandon it. Therefore... here i come!!! A new blog, a new look, and maybe a more commited me!

I do not know if life had been kind to me. But i do realise i had been thrown with lotsa decisions to make, some split second decisions that could change my life forever. Who am i to be in control of someone's esle happiness n sorrows? Why am i put into this difficult position? And what makes everyone think i am in the right mind to make the right decisions.

Decisions , Decisions, Decisions... Life is about making choices... the right ones that make you move forward and the wrong ones to make you look back and reflect.

I would think that i've made the right choice today... but this choice could backfire me anytime in the future.

Being me, i am a risk taker and have always been. But not this time...